Singapore March 11 - 21.04 hrs

Nicole and Greg - photo taken this morning.

Live one day at a time. We had a relatively quiet day. We had the visit of Pascal in the late afternoon and had a quiet and simple dinner at home.
Nicole is relaxed and is not thinking about tomorrow. She has an appointment with Dr. Ngoi, the surgeon at 15.15 hrs followed by an appointment with Dr. Karmen Wong, the oncologist.

While Nicole is feeling well, I have been grappling with the question: "What does it
mean to live life fully?"

I suppose that to be able to be "fully alive" one has to live consciously. And I find this explanation to be very appropriate:

"Living consciously is a state of being mentally active rather than passive. It is the ability to look at the world through fresh eyes.It is intelligence taking joy in its own function. Living consciously is seeking to be aware of everything that bears our interests, actions, values, purposes, and goals. It is the willingness to confront facts, pleasant or unpleasant. It is the desire to discover our mistakes and correct them... it is the quest to keep expanding our awareness and understanding, both of the world external to self and of the world within." from the Art of Living Consciously by Nathaniel Branden.
The question I am asking myself is then "Am I living consciously?"

My answer is not 100%. I guess that I need to be able to reach a level of self-awareness so that I can know myself at the deepest level which then would allow me to know my values and purpose in life and then to align my behavior according to these.
The illness of Nicole has allowed me increase a little bit my level of self-awareness - like I know that I am a sensitive person - In fact Nicole always mentioned that I was so insensitive to people's feelings. I now pay a little more attention to "other-awareness"

However, I am still a long way from reaching total full self-awareness!