Monday 3.35a.m.
Sunday went by with its ups and downs...at mass the priest in his homily was talking about how we must trust God and let His will be done.. i could not digest this ...since, these last days, i had been praying so hard for Him to heal me, to heal my cancer, my body, mind and spirit...
But at the end of mass we walked home in peace...
I think, since this disease, my heart is starting to become more sensitive, more sensitive to other people's suffering..before, when i read about all this suffering happening in the world, people dying in Iraq, bombs here and there killing people... i could not empathise their huge pain..now i seem to feel so differently.
Suffering is such a mystery..
So long that I can pray and have a little trust in God i'm peaceful...so long that I could live the present, smell the roses,enjoy the food, enjoy Maurice' s love and caring attention and be aware of God's presence in all this i'm at peace...He is taking care of me after all in His own way...i was just reading somewhere that trials are ways that God uses to prune us, to prune us so that we can bear better fruits..and i said to myself : Well!this pruning of His is really a tough one..may be i needed this tough one!!!Ah!ah!
I was sharing with Maurice that he and I we are taking a big risk in sharing so much of ourselves, our very deep selves with you all...each of you is living a different stage of your life, each of you feels differently about life, about spirituality...each of you has a unique path to follow in life...
But never mind...we're taking the risk.
Tks very much to everybody who prayed for us during mass yesterday..
Tks for your love...God's love is present through you all.
God's love is present in everybody that we meet...everybody...God is present in every experience that we live....if only we can become more aware of it.
There are a lot of couples reading the blog...a message that i want to give to you all...please live your couple life fully...Do not take couple life for granted...we are always rushing around doing things... Learn to really be present and loving to each other..
Maurice and I we are learning now to be fully present to each other..sometimes i say :so much time wasted!!..But the past cannot be undone...let's live the present the best we can.
A couple life of deep sharing makes life so much more meaningful...
Let me stop here...i guess i wanted so much to share this with you all..
Love,Nic
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We took the time to read through the film of your events as posted on the blog as we are presently stationed in mysore for the next few days. Just like a number of cousins we were shocked on hearing the news. I for one remained breathless for a while on reading the message of Sowkhouin & Marga recently. You are in our thoughts and prayers.I would like to share my reflexion of the Gospel of the feast of Cana which questions largely our faith in the goodness and love of our Lord. To fully trust our Lord and to abandon us to His love is not an easy task! Que Ta volonte soit faite!
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A lire le texte ,la première fois j’ai trouvé dure la réponse de Jésus. L’Evangéliste St. Jean cite verbatim « Femme, que me veux-tu ? Mon heure n’est pas encore venue ». C’est quand même sa mère qui lui parle ?
Au delà d’être le fils de sa mère,IL est son Dieu. Je revois après dans la réponse, le rappel de Il est le Dieu fait homme. Il tient a ce moment là, une double capacité : Dieu et fils de Marie.
La demande d’une créature dans le cas de notre Sainte Vierge ne semble pas être appropriée dans l’heure. Comme nos demandes à Dieu ne sont pas toujours appropriées.
Est-ce que Jésus nous met il a l’épreuve sa créature ? Peut-être bien.
Voyons comment a fait notre Sainte Vierge Marie : « Faites tout ce qu’il vous dira ». Par ce biais, elle insiste et fait comme si le Seigneur accèdera à sa demande. Est ce une insolence ou une foi et confiance sans question, dans la bonté du Seigneur ? Elle aurait eu la grosse tête si il n’y avait pas eu de miracle. Elle n’y avait même pas pensé que cela ne serait pas arrivé. Elle avait misé banco sur sa foi en Dieu.
Quelle leçon pour moi Seigneur ? Oui je te demande ma guérison sans vraiment insister qu’elle se réalise. Et où est ma foi inébranlable dans ta bonté ?
Bonne Sainte Vierge, toi qui a parcouru cette voie, je te demande d’intercéder pour moi et de me guider dans ma supplication. O Seigneur,Toi qui connais mon manque de Foi, pardon ! Et je t’en supplie guéris moi.
C’est ma prière en ce jour des noces de Cana !
Union des prieres. MarieAnne & Joseph
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